I agree with Keith. It sounds like depression. I feel that way sometimes myself, but nothing like I used to. As far as societal definitions of happiness, I don't believe they work. I used to be constantly pushing myself, trying different things and working really hard at my job in order to move up. It did not bring me happiness. A year ago I had a powerful spiritual experience that basically told me that helping others is my path to happiness. I have been involved in Overeaters Anonymous for the past 3 years. Speaking about my experiences at meetings and talking to people really makes me feel peaceful. I have been progressing in this regard for the past year. Trying different things and researching vocations to try to figure out where my next move is. I am currently an engineer, and for the past 6 years, I've felt I was in the wrong field. I have grown tremendously and working with "things" is no longer of any interest to me. There are so many social problems in the world today and I am hoping to make a career in an area that may help to decrease these problems. Thanksgiving weekend, I am going out to Biloxi, MS to help clean up. I am curious what this experience will do for me. Sorry I got off the topic. I just wanted you to know that societal pressures mean nothing. You need to figure out what is really important to you, then pursue it. If it doesn't work out, at least you've learned something and it may give you further guidance into what would make you happy.
