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Raising Vegetarian Children
by Jo Stepaniak, M.S.Ed., & Vesanto Melina M.S., R.D.

Raising Vegetarian Children

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Getting Older

I'm twenty-three, and every day I grow older. Every year, I grow older. For the last six years, I have been growing older, yet I am in the exact same place now that I was then. I don't want to get any older...yet.

For the past six years, I have been battling medical problems, medical problems that no doctor has been able to fully figure out. If it's not my "condition" making me feel horrible, it's one of the numerous medications I've been prescribed that's making me sick. So, I have been unable to go to school or to work during this time, leaving me to feel completely useless.

I feel like there is a whole world going on out there, and I'm just standing still as it all passes me by. I don't even acknowledge my birthday anymore, and I don't let anybody else try to celebrate it in any way, shape, or form. Each year that passes means I'm another year farther away from where I want to be. I have no idea when, or even if, I'll ever be better. I know that there is no time limit on doing things in life -- school, career, marriage. My sister took thirteen years to complete what normally takes four years of college. My uncle went back to school to get a degree in his fifties. I've had relatives get married at all ages, even into their sixties. It's just that that's not how I saw things for myself. I don't know if I'd be a strong enough person to start college at an older age. And how can I even think about marriage and a family when I'm not able to go out and meet anybody? A career is impossible when I can't even really leave my house.

As I grow older, my mom also grows older. She is my whole world. She's the only person who truly knows and understands me. She loves me unconditionally. And, right now, I am completely dependent on her in every way possible. I constantly worry that something is going to happen to her. I couldn't live without her. I wouldn't want to live without her.

I wish I could rewind time to six years ago, and then just pause it. That was the last time I remember everything being really great in my life. I know that I need to somehow get to a better place, both physically and emotionally. Maybe then I'd appreciate growing older.

Debbie C.
California

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