Oh Lizzie, I know JUST how you feel. I wish I had some wonderful advice for you. All I can say I will be praying for you. I am homeschooling a 16 year old daughter and 12 year old son. I too feel all that you said. I"m sure some of these wonderful people here will give you some great advice. I just keep my faith and hope in the Lord and know He has indeed called me to stay home with my two treasures and He will continue to make a way for us. Hang in there, blessings....... Helen