The most powerful experience I've had in my Life was when I decided to cleanse my body in the hopes of getting back in touch with my natural hunger. I did by means of a 21 day fast from all solid foods. I had friends and family telling me I was nuts. A 55 year old man with a history of heart disease should just relax and go on a nice low fat, low sodium diet and try to exercise. Well when your 6' 2" and weigh in at 385 lbs and you've tried every diet known to man, you have a tendency to look at some alternative ways of accomplishing your goal.
So after doing extensive research on the subject of fasting I decided that it was the only thing that made sense. So here I am on Day 20 of My 21 Day Fast and my life has complete turned upside down. Before I explain what I mean, let me give you a little history. As I said I'm a 55 years old man with a history of Heart Disease ,(I had 4 heart attacks in September of 2003) after which I entered a state of fear about dying. So I sat around my apartment and just watched T.V. and ate and ate and ate, I got up to 350lbs. I was a big meat eater. So when I decided to try and lose the weight I was naturally drawn to the Atkins Diet. According to him you could eat a side of beef every day and still lose weight. The truth is, it will always come down to how many calories go in and how many are burned each day. So now I'm not only compounding my problem with my clogged arteries by eating all this meat, I'm also not going lose weight permanently unless I eat this way for the rest of my life. This just turned out to be another part of the rollercoaster ride I would be on for another 3 years. Needless to say, I'm not a happy camper.
In June of 2004 I had the opportunity to move from El Paso, Texas to my hometown of Oswego, New York. I jumped at the chance and this is where the rest of my story unfolds. I lost my business and went broke. At age 50 there are not a lot of places to find work in a town of 17,000+, So I end up working at LOWES home improvement, which is where I work to this day.
In March of 2007 I realized that I would have to combine both exercise and dieting to achieve any weight loss, so I went to work, I did stair Step for a minimum of 1 hour every day, sometimes twice a day. I kept track of every calorie I consumed by posting it on my computer everyday. Well I dropped 56lbs. I began to buy new clothes and I was feeling pretty good about myself. Then for some reason I did the dumbest thing I could have under the circumstances. I moved from my perfectly functional apartment to this dump of a house just so I could have a washer and dryer in my home. It was cramped and it had almost no kitchen, the only way to get my bed upstairs was to bring the box spring up through the window. I moved on New Years Day 2008 and it was snowing like crazy. The bed would have to wait until spring. It didn't take long for me to get all caught up in the affairs of government and the economy to the point that I was so depressed I landed in the hospital. The morning of my second day the nurse came in and said I need to check your temp, blood pressure and weight. So when the first 2 were done I said where is the scale? She said "we don't need a scale the bed weighs you". I said "so what is my weight? Oh my God, she said "402 pounds". I don't think I have ever been more ashamed in my life. After getting out of the hospital I spent the rest of the year trying to lose the weight. Nothing seemed to work.
I ended up moving back to my spaciest 2 bedroom apartment where everything good had begun to happen the year before. I went back to basics, the difference being, the exercise would have to wait, I just could not handle it until I lost some weight. I was up and down until the beginning of October, that's when I started my research on fasting. On October 26, 2009 I started a 6 day water only fast. I just wanted to clean myself out a bit. I read somewhere that a long term fast of 21 days would be much more beneficial then just a 6 day fast. I thought about and abracadabra here I am. I posted a daily progress video on YouTube and that led to wonderful synchronicities in meeting just the right people at just the right time and it has had a powerful effect on me. I'm convinced that at least a Vegan Lifestyle is what I want, I'm going to begin by going completely Raw with no dairy and no meat. After what I've seen and heard I come to tears every time I think of what animals are put through to provide us with something that isn't even good for us. All of that has led to this website. I've built a bunch of websites since 1995, but for the first time, this website is a part of me, not a money machine. Will I ever make money with this? Only the universe and the power of deliberate creation will determine that, but for now it is just something I have to do.